Monday, June 10, 2013

THE DOWN SIDE.

So. . . while the cerclage surgery seemed to go well, other parts of life seem to be exploding in very ugly bits of light.

I feel like I'm doing all of the work.  Yes.  I know I'm actually doing all of the work growing our child, but I feel like I'm the only one suffering.  Seriously?  Do you know what I just put my body through?  Oh really?  You cleaned the house while I laid in bed having post-surgical contractions and bleeding?  You want kuddos?  Really?  I'll remember to tell our child that.

I have found that there are many women who google "I'm pregnant and I hate my husband"  It is a sign, people.  Pregnant women hate their husbands and even worse. . . high risk pregnant women want to stab their husbands in the face with ice picks.

I'm feeling like this is a phase, but I'm also feeling very sorry for myself and the general state of affairs.  I miss my daughter and I don't feel like the Hub (or his family) understand.  I will likely never forgive any of them for their seeming lack of "give a shit"

. . For now, I will try to get some sleep (as last night, I fumed in bed while the Hub slept peacefully.)

Exhausted.  Hurting.  Hateful.

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