Another week! I'm excited. Can't you tell? Oh? Is my sleepy demeanor and slurred speech throwing you? Yes, that must be part of the side-effects of my lack of good sleep!
This weekend was really laid back. The Hub and I took a long drive, helped some friends celebrate their birthdays, ate some good foods and on at least one occasion, the NAP TRUCK slammed into our house - breaking all of the windows and rendering all of us (the Hub, myself AND the dog) comatose for two hours. Mmmmm!
The baby has been very active and it is comforting to me. Starting the 11th, I will have weekly appointments with both my Home Nurse and my OB's office. Statistically, this is the time we need to take extra precautions as at the end of the month marks the week that I gave birth to Mira. Therefore, there will be plenty of check-ins on my cervical length and fetal heart rate. I just hope this gives me enough peace of mind to endure it all. (Because, if one more person tells me that the key to this "whole" thing is to "be positive" - I might kill them. Seriously. One day, I'm going to write about how holding your child while she dies changes the way that the brain works and that it is impossible to think positively all the time when reality is running up your back. Oh - and let's not get me started today on how the next month is going to be my scariest time and what I need is support rather than your criticism of my realistic approach to my OWN FUCKING health care.)
So to counteract those folks who just have no idea what it is like to lose their child and then be in the middle of a "subsequent" pregnancy. . (I hate that the books call this pregnancy the "subsequent" one. It belittles it) I am going to write a list today of the things that I am looking forward to. . .
* Thursday is Independence Day. To celebrate, it is likely that we will join our extended family on the farm and shoot off some enormous fireworks. Unless it's hotter than balls. . . then I'll probably find a pool somewhere and float in it until September.
* Friday, a group of us is getting together and swimming and BBQing all day long. I plan to make some amazing foods to nosh on and get this. . I *will* be in a bikini. Smirk all you want. . . but, I've got the balls. What I don't have is room in a normal swimming suit. So, really. . this is for the best.
* Saturday I get the use of my friend's season tickets to the Muny (The St Louis Municipal Opera house) in Forest Park. The feature of the week is Nunsense. . which I have on an old VHS - starting one of my favorite Golden Girls. Because I'm also 60 and Catholic. Because I'm neither of these things.
Hopefully, the next three days will pass by quickly. Thursday is typically my favorite day of the workweek. . . and today is my . . "sort of" Wednesday. . tomorrow should be awesome! =)
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